For the past week our entire house (Andy, myself, & the kids) have been battling COVID. Y’all!!!! This shit is no fucking joke!
Can’t smell. Can’t taste. Can’t breathe. Everything hurts. Cold sweats. It’s almost like walking through your own death.
And that’s just how Andy and I are feeling. I don’t know exactly how the kids are feeling because they’re too young to understand and really explain it themselves, but I do know they have fevers, horrible coughs, and David’s throwing up.
We’re in week two of this. But here’s to hoping that we all start feeling better and back to normal soon!
So a lot has happened since the last post. I’m going to try and get you guys caught up without making this post super long and boring.
First thing -the robbery. If you follow me on tiktok then you know that we’ve been struggling with the police, or in our town they sheriff department, not really caring or wanting to do anything to help us. We told them the morning that we originally called them out to report the break-in and theft who we thought the guy was because he was identified by at least 15 to 20 other people who saw the video or a still shot photo from the video. And they flat out told us “oh no we know him it’s not him we know that’s not the guy” before they even fucking looked at the video or any photos. But whatever, we figured if they watch the video and we showed them some still pictures they’d at least question the person who other people named, which they did. They questioned him, and we didn’t hear anything from them for about a week, maybe a week and a half. During that time, the sheriff was ignoring any phone calls, emails, social media messages, etc that I was sending to try and reach out about information on our case. Well, they finally called us back like I said about a week, maybe a week and a half later, and told us that they questioned the guy who other people named in the photo and videos and they don’t believe that it was him. They told us that they have no leads or any idea who it might have been and that there is nothing else they can do for us. So basically they questioned the guy that everybody else named they don’t want to arrest him for some unknown reason so they’re saying that it’s not him and they’ve closed our case. So now I’m emailing our local news station and our local papers and I’m using my social media platforms to reach out to any other authorities, or people in general, who can either help us or know who we could call or contact to have Arthur case looked into. Honestly, we aren’t expecting to get any of the tools or the knives or anything that they stole back, we don’t care about the stuff being returned at this point, it’s more now about the person facing consequences for stealing and letting them know that they can’t do whatever they want without some form of repercussions happening. we also want some kind of action taken against the sheriff for the police department for failing to do their job and honestly, just flat out refusing to do anything about the crime and for ignoring us for about a week week and a half. So if anyone knows what we can do or who we can talk to about this, feel free to please let me know in the comment section below!
On another note – Thanksgiving is right around the corner, along with Christmas (or Yule, whichever you celebrate). I’m not going to lie, I was super excited about thanksgiving. I was ready for the food and the family, and just to relax with the kids and spend a day or two (whichever he decides to take off) with the kids and Andy at home. But then I got a call from my mom updated me with some family things that are going on back home (most of you know we’re living in the Midwest and all of my family lives on the East coast, most of Andy’s family here), and without going into extreme details, it wasn’t great news. A family member that I’m pretty close with is declining health wise and is in the beginning stages of dementia. The dementia is bad enough on its own (I watched my best friend battle with dementia and ultimately lose so I know exactly what’s coming and it sucks), but the other issues on top of it just make it a little harder. Putting everything together just has him slowly declining mentally and physically getting so much weaker than what I’m used to seeing him like. I’m not sure if it’s hitting hard because I’m not right there to help if he needs it like I’m used to or just the fact that someone else close to me has to fight dementia (and lose, because dementia isn’t a battle you can win) – but either way my emotions are out of whack and I’ve just been zoning out and crying for like the past 3 days. Andy has said that if we’re able to we can go down the day after Christmas to go and see some of my family so I think that’s what we’re going to do. But if you follow my other social media and you notice my posts are a little weird they’re a little whacked they’re not like normal it’s a lot going on right now just give me a little bit of time I’m going to get my emotions and check and things will be back to normal just hang on.
hopefully you guys lives are going a little bit better than mine. On a good note though tracking is along with mine spiritual journey if you want to call it I have been reading more on the weekend overall in general and I looked into Norse which actually was quite interesting for me but after a little while it was just not holding on to my attention (but I still do enjoy it it’s still really fun to read about), I’m currently into the Fae. If you don’t know what that is it is still a form of Wiccan but it’s more focused on the fairies and the gnomes and the elves, I’m really into the fairy part of it right now I don’t know if it’s a phase or if that’s just where I’m supposed to be focusing my attention but that’s where I am. I tried tarot reading with my tiny Tarot deck, and while I like it occasionally it’s a fun little game kind of for me it just it doesn’t resonate with me it doesn’t hit I don’t feel a connection (not knocking it if you do if you feel the connection with tarot cards great it’s just it’s not for me I don’t feel connected there), I do feel connected with my oracle cards and my runes (which the runes is from the Norse). And if you follow me on other social media, then you know I have a podcast where I do general Oracle and rune readings daily – there’s also a tiktok with some other general Oracle and rune reading videos. If you click the link in our top bar that says other social media, it will redirect you to my beacons page which includes a link to the podcast and a link to the podcast’s TikTok (there’s also a link for my personal tiktok- they’re labeled accordingly so you’ll know which is which). To go follow give us a listen give us a like hit up some shares show us some love, if you’re interested in that kind of thing.
But seriously you guys, there’s a lot going on right now I’m going to try and make sure that between this post and my next blog post there’s not a huge gap in time but I can’t promise anything with what’s going on. But as always if I’m not posting here and you want to know what’s going on you want to make sure we’re all okay you can always come to the block and click our other social media and go look on our Instagram or our tiktok or our Snapchat and you can find out if we’re okay and what’s going on. For those of you that have stuck around from the very beginning until now I absolutely love you thanks for sticking around thanks for putting up with my shit this long, I love you and I will talk to you gorgeous people later.
so a lot has happened since the last time I had a chance to sit down and post for y’all, so now I’m going to fill you all in.
So this past week, Tuesday night early Wednesday morning to be exact, someone broke into Andy’s work truck and stole all of his tools. They then broke into our garage and stole a few knives and a box (which they assumed had a DeWalt drill in it, but it was actually empty). They didn’t know that we have security cameras covering our entire property outside as well as inside our house and inside the garage.
now on this particular morning the camera that was facing our vehicles didn’t capture anything being stolen because it was unplugged (but we didn’t know that – we’ve been having issues with the kids unplugging everything and we didn’t know they unplugged the camera before we went to bed) but the camera that we have in the garage did catch the guy stealing the knives and the DeWalt box (again, he thought it probably had a drill in it, but it was actually empty).
so we filled out a report with the local sheriff’s department and the first time they came out honestly they just kind of brushed it all off. They didn’t really write anything down, they didn’t take anything a prints, nothing. They did take a copy of the video camera footage that we had, but that was it. When we told them who our roommates said it looked like they instantly dismissed the name without even really giving it any thought.
so we had a few people we know watch the video and see the photos of the guy in our garage and they absolutely positively identified him. They gave a statement to the sheriff telling them the person in the video was and how they know that it was him. The sheriff still just brushed it off. Well thursday, we call the sheriff’s department and have them send someone back out because we could hear the guy who broke into our garage and truck on the property next door to us yelling “haha, they didn’t get me” and threatening to burn our house down (and we knew it was his voice because our roommate used to live with him so he knew what he looked like he knew his voice everything and he told us that’s who it is) can y’all guess what the police did? ABSOLUTELY FUCKING NOTHING!
they went over there and claimed that the guy on the video tapes we gave them wasn’t there and they did a search for the stolen property but didn’t see any of it. Which of course they aren’t going to find the actual fucking property that he stole because by that time I had already been over 24 hours I’m pretty sure he had taken it to a pawn shop sold it whatever he’s not going to leave it on him.
so I decided to go above our local sheriff department’s head. I called the district attorney, attorney general, us marshal, and State highway patrol. THEY HAVE ALL FUCKING BLOWN US OFF! I even messaged the entire story to our local news with the photos and the video evidence, they have also ignored us. Everyone is telling us that it is up to our local police department or sheriff’s office to handle this case. But our local sheriff’s department isn’t doing anything which is why we’ve been calling the higher ups.
but I’m going to continue to blow up the lines, flood the email inbox, text messages, whatever I need to do for our local sheriff to take this seriously. And if they still refuse, well then I will be taking it into my own hands. Theft is not okay. And law enforcement refusing to do their jobs is absolutely not okay either.
yes, the items the guy took are easily replaceable, that’s not the point at all. The items they stole on my husband’s livelihood it’s how we provide for our kids – so in my eyes, he stole from my kids AND THAT Will NOT FUCKING SIT WELL WITH ME EVER!
Denver to either want to help us with this we would more than greatly appreciate it. If you want to share the video footage here’s a link to the video footage share it everywhere you can we want to get this guy’s face out there and we want to make it known that the fucking police in our town are not doing anything about it!
So I haven’t been feeling exactly like myself lately. I have actually had this post in my drafts for about 2 maybe 3 weeks because I wasn’t really sure how to explain my mental state, and honestly I still don’t think I can.
But a few of you have sent emails and direct messages on social media wondering if everything was okay, what was going on, why there hasn’t been a new blog post lately etc.
I do enjoy keeping you guys in the loop. I’ve let you guys know before when I wasn’t okay or when I was depressed. But I don’t think it’s the same thing this time. Any other time my depression has gotten bad or my mental state has kind of slipped downhill I’ve been able to put into words what happened or what triggered it or whatever and this time I don’t really know why so I’m still trying to figure that out.
so while my mental state may not be top notch at its best, I am still here. Normally I would say I’m okay, but not being able to put why I feel so emotionally drained or why I’m just not feeling myself lately I don’t want to say I’m okay because I don’t know, I don’t think I am I’m not sure honestly but I am still here.
I have been still updating on tiktok and clapper, even though I have taken a break I know from the blog and Facebook and Twitter and Instagram and Snapchat I have been still updating clapper and take talk. So you can still follow the family on there but other than that I am alive I’m just kind of taking some back off time to try and figure out my mental state and what’s going on and how to fix it.
But I do want to say thank you to those of you who have messaged me asking what’s going on, if I’m ok, and checking up on me.
Hopefully I’ll get myself together and be back to normal soon.
Y’all want to know what really irritates me to my soul? What just really grinds the fuck out of my gears??
When you try helping someone because they’re having a rough patch in life, but then they take advantage of that and start to expect you to always be there to help them whenever they need it.
But when the tables are turned and you need help, or if you tell them you can’t help them, then they all of a sudden disappear. Like they’re your friend and always around to hang out as long as you are helping them, but when you can’t help them (or won’t anymore) all of a sudden they don’t know who you are and you don’t see or hear from them.
Like seriously, can it be anymore obvious that you’re just using friendship as a tool or game to get whatever you need or want!?
Either actually be a friend and value the friendship you’re given or just go fail on your own. I fucking can’t stand people who abuse the fact that you’re a nice person and like to help others.
So most of y’all know, just like almost everyone else in the world, I’m all over social media. From Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, all the way down to Snapchat, Youtube, Tiktok, and Clapper.
One thing I’ve been noticing A LOT of is how many women talk about “it’s not right to put other women [or other people in general] down for any reason”. There’s so many women that leave comments to other people that say [something along the lines of] “you shouldn’t judge other people for how they live their lives, we all do things differently, it doesn’t necessarily mean it’s wrong.”
But you know what really gets me about that??
Those same women that tell people not to judge others and that it’s so wrong to put other women [or people] down, will comment some of the most degrading and rudest shit under other people’s videos…
Someone help me make it make sense!!
Either you’re ok with putting other people down OR you think it’s wrong and people shouldn’t do…but you CAN NOT play both sides of that field.
You can’t think it’s wrong to put some people down, but be ok with putting others down. That’s not how it works at all!!
**Thanks guys, sorry I just really needed to get that off my chest.**
It’s been a depressing last few days for me. I just haven’t been feeling like my normal perky self for about a week or two. I’m not really sure what’s been going on, but I’m definitely trying to pull myself out of it.
Andy’s been doing his best to try and be understanding and super helpful with pulling me out of this “funk” I’ve been in. But honestly, he can only do so much when I can’t really explain what’s wrong with me other than feeling a little depressed.
I’ve been working a lot lately, spiritually, to try and better understand myself and I think coming into who I really am is causing a little depression just because my mind doesn’t work well with change and it’s scary because I honestly thought I knew who I was and now I’m discovering this whole new side of me…it’s scary.
Some of you have been emailing me and sending me DMs on our social media pages wondering where I’ve been and how come my posts are so far and few between. I appreciate the concern and the love from each and every one of you.
I answered a few of you, but if I didn’t I’m sorry- it’s honestly nothing personal against y’all. I’m just not feeling like myself lately.
I’m beginning to work closely with Lilith and hopefully she continues to be a huge help. Hopefully I’ll be out of this funk soon and be back to the normal perky blogger that you all love!
Thank you all for being patient and super understanding!
So I have a question and need to know if it’s a real thing or if I’m just being moody and crazy…
Does it really count as a “vacation” if you’re still doing almost everything you’d be doing if you were at home? Like does it even count if you’re still the main one taking care of the kids, making sure they don’t get hurt or hurt each other, cleaning up after them…y’all know- the usual “mom stuff” that I do any other day that we’re at home?
Maybe I’m just crazy, or getting ready for my menstrual and extra emotional, but it really doesn’t feel like a vacation to me anymore. The constant running around chasing kids, watching them play so they don’t get hurt or hurt someone else, making their bottles, making their plates for dinner….it’s literally the same stuff I do at home. I’m not on vacation, I’m just parenting in a different location.
Don’t get me wrong, I do love the change of scenery, and it’s always great to see family that lives far away. But I would love a vacation where we either don’t bring the kids (even if it’s just over night) or one where we bring the kids, but I actually don’t have to do all the responsibility of watching them. Even if it only happens once, and even if it’s just an overnight trip somewhere.
So this weekend we are spontaneously in Missouri. Yep! Andy’s sister called Friday night asking when could we get down here because she needs him to help build the deck on their new house. So, like the awesome guy he is, Andy told her we’d be down Saturday (last night).
We packed the bare essentials we’d need, loaded up the kids, and left Saturday morning. So while he’s out there building her a deck (with her husband and her helping as much as they can) I’m getting some time to relax and the boys are getting some time to visit and play with their cousins (which is always nice).
And honestly, as stressful as it was to make sure that we had everything we would need and everything for the kids, then leaving within 24 hours of finding out that we’d be going, I’m really enjoying the time away from the house. Not that our new house is stressful or anything, but it’s always nice to get a different view once in a while (especially being a stay at home mom).
I’ve already added some of the videos from the trip up here on our TikTok channel and I’ll be editing a video as soon as we get back so that should be up by the end of this week or the beginning of next week to our Youtube channel.
But this mini-spontaneous vacation was definitely needed. And I got to meet Chris’ (Andy’s sister’s husband) parents which was nice. They were super nice to me and were great with the kids. Chris’ dad actually gave AJ his first ride on a backhoe which he just thought was the most awesome thing in the universe!
What is y’alls favorite vacation (whether it was spontaneous or not) that you’ve ever taken?? Let us know in the comments below!